Okay. So we are going through the fun world of infertility for the three or less readers I have on this blog that may not know yet. Brad's doctor at the last appointment told us that our infertility problems are more difficult then the stress levels from people who go through cancer diagnosis and treatment. Lucky for Brad he gets to go through both of these experiences. As his dad died 3 years ago today from cancer! The doctor told us its normal is be angry, to cry, and then to make choices that would be the best for both of us. It is not fun trying to work on getting certified for adoption, work on my personal fertility appointments and cover all of Brad's infertility as well.( Which most is not covered by insurance!)Probably not the best idea doing all three at once. I am so impatient and have my 27th birthday next month, which is annoying and terrifying. I feel old and don't know what I have done with my life thus far. A possible baby may be open for us to adopt coming up in the next 5 weeks. Pray that it works out and that the mother see's that we are capable and able to take her baby. We do not know what the baby's sex is, but she is due May 5th. Also, we have a 15% chance of a successful pregnancy through invitro. After going through 2 surgeries with Brad and I.Injections, pills, more appointments may be in the future still. Brad and I are in the process of deciding what to do still. I am a realist and know that my husband needs to father his children, but I don't see how the stats given can prove that it MAY work. We will probably go with a sperm donor in the end. It does not matter how a spirit arrives to earth, the most important thing is that the baby is healthy and comes to a great home and family that will love them and raise them in the gospel. It is a trial physically, financially, emotionally, and a marriage strengthener or destroyer. I am learning to be patient, kind and positive in this affliction. Who knows I may even be a bit more Christlike after this is all said and done. In the mean time, Monday is our home check and 3 hour interview with the adoption agency. Pray that I behave and don't say anything awkward or offensive! We are getting our pool fence up and getting the guns out of the house.